Tuesday, October 03, 2006
as i recalled earlier this year in one of my posts:
"i believe now is one of the high points of my time in madison"
and at the time i recalled mentioning to one of my housemates that i was expecting a big dip to happen next because of The Law of Conservation of Shit.
me and my big mouth.
i guess thats where i am right now init. at the bottom and wavering there. i'm going not going to type some emo shit because i'm not feeling so shattered now and its just a little up from the downs i'm having recently. no make that a level numbness. hopefully it climbs a little tomorrow. i need it.
believe me i want things to be back to normal. but its hard when its just .. i dunno. its just a vicious cycle between sadness and anger and disappointment.
i would love to have back the grey monotonous average ; some little victories interspersed with minor anti climaxes will do. too much drama, self induced, induced or otherwise is not good for my soul.
"i believe now is one of the high points of my time in madison"
and at the time i recalled mentioning to one of my housemates that i was expecting a big dip to happen next because of The Law of Conservation of Shit.
me and my big mouth.
i guess thats where i am right now init. at the bottom and wavering there. i'm going not going to type some emo shit because i'm not feeling so shattered now and its just a little up from the downs i'm having recently. no make that a level numbness. hopefully it climbs a little tomorrow. i need it.
believe me i want things to be back to normal. but its hard when its just .. i dunno. its just a vicious cycle between sadness and anger and disappointment.
i would love to have back the grey monotonous average ; some little victories interspersed with minor anti climaxes will do. too much drama, self induced, induced or otherwise is not good for my soul.
