Monday, April 25, 2005
you know theres something not quite right about u-wisc if, during the Phi Beta Kappa induction, all you see are rows and rows of wisconsin cheeseheads and their proud parents, and you're the only chinky who is incidentally the only international student, the only blur coc from Singapore ("no , we don't flog people publicly for chewing gum."), speaking with a distinct Singaporean accent with a Chinky name that no one can pronounce and you're embarassed for them that they mangled it all up even though you told them - its okay just call me wang already.
now i understand what my PI was talking about when she mentionted that wisc is desperately in need of minorities to boost diversity ratings. Being an only underdressed chink among the sea of tuxedo clad paleskins is rather uncomfortable, when half of them buggers, "recognized with distinction for both breadth and depth in the liberal arts " don't know where the fuck singapore is.
Damn, Saturday was a weird shit experince.
now i understand what my PI was talking about when she mentionted that wisc is desperately in need of minorities to boost diversity ratings. Being an only underdressed chink among the sea of tuxedo clad paleskins is rather uncomfortable, when half of them buggers, "recognized with distinction for both breadth and depth in the liberal arts " don't know where the fuck singapore is.
Damn, Saturday was a weird shit experince.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
never in my life have i been so fucking irritated by a whole course. never. it might be due to in part by my spectacular screw up, but i don't think so, or again, maybe i'm just biased.
ever since i started this course, a loud voice inside my head told me to screw that course and drop it, but nooooOOOOOO i had to keep it.
Could it be the anal retentive content and the level of meaningless detail one must memorize in order to get just a point?
Could it be the overwhelming number of pre-meds who emininently memorize the abovementioned details and hence skew the curve so badly to the wrong side of the bell curve?
Could it just be the self important jargon clinicians like to use to mask their comprehension or lack thereof on the subject matter?
Whatever the case is, its turning me off systems neuroscience. I take it that at graduate level, things are not as anal as senior level courses. However, I have a feeling one still has to memorize oneself silly with all that bullshit that doesn't mean anything.
And now instead of working on my Lit paper I'm worrying myself silly over this bullshit course that i don't even need for my fucking major!
Thats it then, no more senior level courses for me already. I fully expected myself to buang on the grad level courses this semester, but I've never thought that its this stupid self important anal stuck up piece of shit course (hrmm.... sounds like I'm talkign about myself here) is taking away years of my fucking life.
Fuckin' 'ay!
ever since i started this course, a loud voice inside my head told me to screw that course and drop it, but nooooOOOOOO i had to keep it.
Could it be the anal retentive content and the level of meaningless detail one must memorize in order to get just a point?
Could it be the overwhelming number of pre-meds who emininently memorize the abovementioned details and hence skew the curve so badly to the wrong side of the bell curve?
Could it just be the self important jargon clinicians like to use to mask their comprehension or lack thereof on the subject matter?
Whatever the case is, its turning me off systems neuroscience. I take it that at graduate level, things are not as anal as senior level courses. However, I have a feeling one still has to memorize oneself silly with all that bullshit that doesn't mean anything.
And now instead of working on my Lit paper I'm worrying myself silly over this bullshit course that i don't even need for my fucking major!
Thats it then, no more senior level courses for me already. I fully expected myself to buang on the grad level courses this semester, but I've never thought that its this stupid self important anal stuck up piece of shit course (hrmm.... sounds like I'm talkign about myself here) is taking away years of my fucking life.
Fuckin' 'ay!
Monday, April 18, 2005
i hate mondays.
especially today, when i just had my buanged my neuro midterm. This is the first time here that i've gotten a freakin' B. Before you start throwing bottles at me, er...
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who cares! die lor. *shrug*
especially today, when i just had my buanged my neuro midterm. This is the first time here that i've gotten a freakin' B. Before you start throwing bottles at me, er...
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who cares! die lor. *shrug*
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
finally reached a threshold where, despite the threat of a lynching from the sponsors, i cannot be bothered with studying anymore. someone just cut my head off and give it to them. i want to be lying back and drinking my goddamned beer stash which i haven't touched for 2 freakin weeks because i was studying for these goddamned tests all the goddamned time.
so screw you! yes you, you freaking obfuscating neuro TA. talking through you nose? won't impress anyone. complex sentence structure on notes? i won't admire it fool, i'd only tear the notes in two and throw it at you. pre meds? fuck off you curve mangling tossers!
40 minutes to the chem quiz. I dont care! i won't study anymore!
so screw you! yes you, you freaking obfuscating neuro TA. talking through you nose? won't impress anyone. complex sentence structure on notes? i won't admire it fool, i'd only tear the notes in two and throw it at you. pre meds? fuck off you curve mangling tossers!
40 minutes to the chem quiz. I dont care! i won't study anymore!
Friday, April 01, 2005
because of the kind hearted professor's gesture of shifting the exam till next week (intended for the spring break buggers, not limpeh), he has created a situation where I sit for two graduate level courses and one chao mugging premed type course (did i mention to anyone how i hate premeds? or pure mugging courses in particular? contradictory i know, coming from a pure mugger, but i digress..) in the space of two days.
so of course, i've been doing what i've been paid to do the whole week. and regardless of what i've actually said about beer and mugging in my earlier post (sorry, i think i was drunk or high from solving that bugger question or both), beer really screws up mugging especially if you're required to remember useless bullshit that you will have no use later (like where the hell is the occular dominance columns in the primary visual cortex located ... fucking neuro i hate you!) . Unfortunately, this meant that i've been dry the whole week. i need beer now! NOW!!!!!!
To not screw up GRE (tomorrow.. sibeh good timing har. this is the classic manifestation of Murphy's bloody Law) by not screwing up my liver, or to maintain blood EtOH levels and ADH activity (DAMN YOU GRE... did i mention i've been really dreaming about yeast and ADHs for the whole week?) that is the question .
So how? Drink or not drink? *Gah*
so of course, i've been doing what i've been paid to do the whole week. and regardless of what i've actually said about beer and mugging in my earlier post (sorry, i think i was drunk or high from solving that bugger question or both), beer really screws up mugging especially if you're required to remember useless bullshit that you will have no use later (like where the hell is the occular dominance columns in the primary visual cortex located ... fucking neuro i hate you!) . Unfortunately, this meant that i've been dry the whole week. i need beer now! NOW!!!!!!
To not screw up GRE (tomorrow.. sibeh good timing har. this is the classic manifestation of Murphy's bloody Law) by not screwing up my liver, or to maintain blood EtOH levels and ADH activity (DAMN YOU GRE... did i mention i've been really dreaming about yeast and ADHs for the whole week?) that is the question .
So how? Drink or not drink? *Gah*
